in pain

jst too much pain to endure. the pain it's like thousands of nails and needle poked into one small heart. all this needle covered 99% of the heart till there is no space fr the heart to bleed. no space fr it to bleed out the blood. so pain tht it's unbearable. and i cant do anything to make it better. jst blaming myself fr all this pain. wan to end it but i dwn leave behind her alone. the pain she endure is more than mine but she stay strong fr me. why cant i stay strong fr her too? i dont understand, if u love someone wont u do anything to make her happy? but why mine is contradicting? why am i here? why she have to suffer? wht she did wrong till she deserves this? i cant stop the pain till now. who knw how pain it is? the needles was full of thorns and blunt. when the needle enters the heart it scratches the wall and pierce through roughly. then all this nails and needles are poked in deeper into the heart and smashed wit a hammer wit the nails and needles inside. then let all the pieces of spiky and sharp nails and needles to scratch the lining of the heart frm within.

dont ask why or wht, jst ignore this post. dont knw where to say it to.