today..$#@!*&^% LOL

Hi.. today everything was out.. i thought i was a bad thing.. cause i saw some of the evil side signs.. bt if i think frm the other side of it.. i feel less stress and guilt fr keeping secrets frm my friends..i can now talk more freely.. but ofcourse more problems come out frm his side.. i wrry fr him.. i really do.. cause i dot mind if ppl say bout me.. but if he gt involve i dont knw how he is going to face it.. i really dont knw.. hope everything work out.. i got worried and i wan to talk to my "chi mui" but i only found one of them.. so i talk to him.. the only him "chi mui" i gt.. i really treat him as my chi mui.. lucky he was those concious ppl to talk to.. XD

one of the things he told me *took frm msn*>>>
Graham
so i said maybe they got better listener ma...if u are a bad listener doesnt mean u are bad fren ma


this is wht graham told me when i talk to him around 8pm..
i was a lil bit over reacted + emotional today..
i've make a lot of ppl tht really cares bout me sad today..
i really must go and take some anger management classes d..T_T

srry guys.. fr making u guys sad and guilty..
it's all my fault.. pls dont be sad anymore..
and STOP blaming urself.. the root of all this is me.. being so lebih..

haiz..got addicted to this song.. tht i saw frm becky's blog..
i fell in love wit the song..
it's confession from a friend by 2am..

WTF IS LOVE?=.=

It's around 2 pm now.. i suppose to call him.. but when i was about to call him.. my bro said he gt something to tell me..
He has been in a relationship fr few months..he met this girl near his working place..
I knew it once they were on.. cause my bro have been calling her fr everyday.. spending about 50% of his pay jst to buy things fr her.. make her happy.. treat her fr movie and meals..
i remember when my bro used to talk to her every night b4 he went to sleep..
she's my bro's 1st gf.. so my bro really wan to make sure things will work out no matter how..
at first i dont like it..cause i knw.. it wont work..especially wit my bro's temper.. he is a short-tempered person.. he can really easily get annoyed and irritated..but as well as hurt..
He told me tht he broke up wit her gf..
and i gt really surprised.. *somehow expected inside my heart..cause my bro now studying in mmu..so the time they spend together is less..
and i knew i bro wont give up on his first jst like this.. seems tht..
It's the girl tht actually ask my bro to break up..
reason??
a very stupid idiotic lamish wtf-ing bullshit asshole-ish ridiculous reason..tht is>>
"ur father is not working.. ur family background doesnt fit wit mine.."

WTF TO THT BIT**!!! GO GET UR F_KING RICHIE GUY SOMEWHERE ElSE WHORE!!!
if u really mind bout my bro's background...

THEN WTF IS THE REASON U SAY YES TO HIM.. AND SPEND ALL HIS MONEY AND PROMISE HIM THT U WILL BE TOGETHER WIT HIM?
=.= F U!!

if u knew his background was suck..
(AND I HEARD HIM TELLING U THIS AND U SAY "NVM U DONT CARE and u promise will stay beside him frever.." *konon le tuu*)
then why did u wan to be a cheap bit** and spend his money? so desperate fr the money then go be ur true self la.. dont use ppl..
my family is already in bad condition.. and my bro dont like to spend his money at all on things tht he thinkn is not worth it.. and now..
because of u..he spend most of it jst to make u happy and wht he get??
NOTHING!!!
and he used up his money,, and now.. he dont knw how to live
beside the reason of u hurting him.. now his hostel expenses is also use up..
and his hp is still wit u..=.= u BIT** took his hp fr wht? cheapo!!!
throw ur lousy hp wit my bro and took his N73=.=* he say if hw dwn d give me knw?!! ARGH!!!

i tell ya u BIT**... u watch out.. jst because i saw u once only cause i came back frm school early tht day.. and thank god i did=.=..
so if nxt time u sddnly gt a girl slap u.. i wish tht it would be me ..
SO NOW GO F*** OFF TO FIND UR RICHIE GUY!!!
and too guys out there..
WATCH OUT FR THE BIT** STAY FAR AWAY FRM HER..UNLESS SHE STATE HER PRICE.. *i suppose tht's wht the whore does always..

pls ignore this port..cause i dont knw where to release my anger d.. XD

thx fr readng..^^

aGaiN?>.< LOL

Your personality type:

Friendly, adaptable, action-oriented. 'Doers' who are focused on immediate results. Living in the here-and-now, they're risk-takers who live fast-paced lifestyles. Impatient with long explanations. Extremely loyal to their peers, but not usually respectful of laws and rules if they get in the way of getting things done. Great people skills.

Careers that could fit you include:

Sales representatives, marketers, police, detectives, paramedics, medical technicians, computer technicians, computer technical support, entrepreneurs, comedians, agents, race car drivers, firefighters, military, loan sharks, con men, auditors, carpenters, craft workers, farmers, laborers, service workers, transportation operatives.

my result's link>>>

http://www.41q.com/type.41q?p=13587554

the quiz link, credits to Zhi-Qin fr this XD

http://www.41q.com/index.41q?a=1

thanks fr reading..^^

PeRsOnaLItY TeSt o.0 *kinda true* XD

Take a piece of paper and write down the answers.. The analysis is in the end....
请拿出一张纸一支笔把你的答案写下来，结论就在后面。

Situation: 场景：
You are in a deep deep forest... as you walk on you saw an old hut standing there...
你在森林的深处，你向前走，看见前面有一座很旧的小屋。

(1) What is the status of the door? (Opened/closed)
这个小屋的门现在是什么状态？（开着/关着）

(2)

You enter the hut and see a table... What is the shape of the table? (Round/Oval/Square/Rectangle/Triangle)
你走进屋子里看见一张桌子, 这个桌子是什么形状的？（圆形/椭圆形/正方形/长方形/三角形）

(3) On top of the table there is a vase... in the vase there is water. How much water is it filled up with? (Full/Half/Empty)
在桌子上有个花瓶，瓶子里有水，有多少水在花瓶里？（满的/一半/空的）

(4)

And what is the vase made of? (Glass/porcelain/clay) (metal/plastic/wood)
这个瓶子是由什么材料制造的？ （玻璃/陶瓷/泥土）（金属/塑料/木头）

(5)

You walk out of the hut... as you carry on your walk in the forest... you see a waterfall from far... there is water running down...

What is the speed of the water? (Choose a number ranging from 0 to 10)
你走出屋子，继续向森林深处前进，你看见远处有瀑布飞流直下，请问水流的速度是多少？（你可以从0—10任意选一个）

(6)

Some time after the waterfall... you step on something hard on the ground... as you look down... you see glistening gold in colour. You bend down and pick it up... it is a keychain chained with keys...

How many key /keys you see hanging on the keychain? (Choose a number ranging from 1 to 10)
过了一会，你走过瀑布，你站在坚硬的地面上，你看见地上有金光闪烁，你弯腰拾起来，是一个带着钥匙的钥匙链。有多少把钥匙拴在上面，你可以任意选一个数字（从1到10）

(7)

You walk on and on... trying to find your way out...suddenly you see a castle.
What is the condition of the castle?　(Old/new)
你继续向前走，试着找出一条路来，突然你发现眼前有一座城堡。这个城堡是什么样的？（旧的/新的）

(8)

You enter the castle and saw a pool of murky water with shining jewels floating on it...Will you pick up the jewel?　(YES/NO)
你走进城堡，看见一个游泳池，黑暗的水面上飘浮着很多闪闪发光的宝石，你会捡起这些宝石吗？（是/不）

(9)

Next to the murky pool... there’s another pool... with clear water and money floating on it...
Will you pick the money?　(YES/NO)
在这个黑暗的游泳池旁边还有一座游泳池。清澈的水面上飘浮着很多枚钱币。你会捡起这些钱币吗？（是/不）　

(10)

Walking to the end of the castle there is an exit...you proceed to walk out of the castle. Outside the exit, there is big garden, you see a box on the ground.

What is the size of the box? (small/medium/big)
你走到城堡的尽头有一个出口，你继续向前走走出了城堡。在城堡外面，你看见一座大花园，你看见地面上有一个箱子。这个箱子是多大尺寸的？（小/中/大）　

　　
(11) What is the material of the box? (cardboard/paper/wooden/metal)
这个箱子是什么材料做的？ （硬纸板/纸/木头/金属）

(12)

There is a bridge in the garden some distance away from the box, What is the bridge made of?
(metal/wooden/rattan)
花园里还有一座桥就在离着箱子的不远处。桥是什么材料建造的？（金属/木头/藤条）

(13)

Across the bridge, there is a horse. What is the colour of the horse? (white/grey/brown/black)
走过这座桥，有一匹马。马是什么颜色的？（白色/灰色/褐色/黑色）

(14)

What is the horse doing? (still and quiet/nibbling grass/running about)
马正在做什么？（安静地站着/吃草/在附近奔跑）

(15)

OH NO!!! There is a tornado coming... some distance from the horse. You have 3 options:
(i) run and hide in the box?
(ii) run and hide under the bridge?
(iii) run to the horse, ride on and gallop away?
哦，不！离马很近的地方突然刮起了一阵龙卷风。你三种选择。
（1） 跑过去藏在箱子里？
（2） 跑过去藏在桥底下？
（3） 跑过去骑马离开？


after u took down ur ans.. refer to my comments to knw the meaning of ur answer..

Good luck in trying XD

continue...

i woke up at 9 today.. not much diff fr me today..
i recently jst notice i lost my appetite.. i dont knw why and wht have happen to me till i have lost my appetite..
I try to recall everything tht happens to me recently but i notice that it's totally contradicting wit each other.. i mean each and everyone of it.. I dont knw i should be happy or sad or things.. i jst dont knw..
Is this the time where humans need to think and meditate to regain their stable thoughts and emotions?
I hope to knw.. Seems tht i never try to find out previously..
reaching such state of life now.. i got no idea wht should i do.. previusly i can roughly guess wht i suppose to do , fr the sake of living of course.. but now.. i got none in my head..
Life has it's owwn ups and downs.. Seems tht the down part of mine is more hurtful than the up part of mine.. F it la...
MIght be i jst have to hate myself? And not be the person who i am now? i should be more mean and strict.. and be like dont give a fknig damn thing bout anything? and jst make sure my life is wht i want? stupid me har? LOL talking to myself again..
Seems tht i have been living in my own world.. alone again.. no matter how many ppl stands beside me.. i still felt alone again.. LOL pathetic of me isnt it?
WHo would have understand me? dont think anyone will.. cause they are not me.. but i do appreciate their effort.. Sometims my thoughts wonder.. why am i born?? and why am i wasting my life like this? does this means tht i will receive punishment and go to hell? or whtever i am doing now is destiny? i think i am over superstitious.. waaayyy to over..
should have been more rasional.. LOL looks who talking..
my frustration came back to me again when she told me she wwan to stop.. and she mean it..
she asked me on my previous job's pay and this make me worried.. am i thinking too much? is she trying to scare me or jst tht she really mean it?
if she really mean it and she DOES it.. i am so.. LOL-ed ...
i wan to live my life carefree... jst let me do it fr this life can i? but i rather suffer now than later.. so God.. do the worst u can or i'm gonna find u and hunt u down..

=yiting=

confused?? @@

Morning guys. It's now 8.51 am, and i jst woke up. The 2nd time i woke up so early even i gt no tuition..=.= something is wrong wit me.
I jst found out many weird things happening to me lately.
I don't know whether I should be happy or sad?
At a moment, I was so emo, then something else happen i gone smiling again.
This is so bad. Just hating myself. I have been hypnotizing myself that none of this is real and u were dreaming. But when i woke up..=.= it's 8++ in the morning and it's is happening and already happened to me.
At this very moment, what could be worst than having a headache now? =.=
Should not have woke up too early..T_T
Should sleep longer at least i can find something useful to do..>.< I wan to post some pics but dont knw wht pics to post. Haiz.. I suppose to be focusing on studies..=3= Really wondering how i can be distracted so badly..=.= Hates myself.. Oh.. recently i jst learned a good value.. Never do things that u would regret. Never.. I've aware that nothing is too late.. As long as u wan it, jst go fr it.. if u missed the chance previously, then dont repeat it.. Go for it again.. but if u think it's useless means i has no more meaning to u anymore..
ditching bblog in the count of 5s..XD

Thx fr reading..

OuTinG XD

Hi! Another post fr the day XP
Around 4 i walk to pui's house and sw fetch us to mf house then to popular..
they manage to buy some study materials and i bought an isotonic drink..
then around 7 we went to jonker cause we planned to meet tong there..
seems tht the traffic wasnt happy today, so it really gave me a BIG HEADACHE man!!
damn those slow cars!! MOVE IT LA!! walao~ u ingat ini bapak lu mia jalan? =.=

Dont wanna talk bout them..
okie then i manage to bought a rubik's cube fr Rm2>>>
ask pui to scramble it all..then i jst
manage to solve the 1st layer only..T___T






okie then i after jonker around 9.. it started to show some raining signs..
so all of u went to zen to eat cakes..since majority wins..
but by the time we reach dp, it's already 9.45pm...>.< i scold Fu** to a bambee car..=.= dont mind bout me at tht time.. was so frust wit the traffic and the bambee car took the spot i wan.. XD DAMN U BAMBEE CAR!!

Then tong have to go back cause she fetching her mom back home.. so left me, pui, mf and sw..
we all sit down at the dp's field and talk XD
as usual, our kegilaaness ter-trigger.. so we did all tht we DID NOT WANT TO DO mia things..LOL.. thank god no one record it down.. XD

and there.. we end our story tonight..^^

Thx fr view XD

LoooOOONNnnngggGG Post XD

Hi! Just too bored today..>.<
So took a few pics around the house and post it..XP

It all begins when teddy jump out frm the back of the lappy and wanna play wit me..>>

then dear dear gt excited and happy cause knws tht teddy wan to play wit me..so he wanna come along XD

then we took a pic together XD awww

(\_/)
okie okie i knw it's lame.. (='.'=)

next would be>>
trip to PARLIMEN!! ahhhhHHHTTT~!! >o<
parlimen template XD

gone to KLCC after tht.. wrry all of us will be lost in the mall..== err
so i took the guide templates jst fr safety purposes..LOL
frgt to take pics cause we're pretty much in a rush.. tht's wht i feel..

nxt random pics>>


my lappy, specs and also purse.. all in red as usual.. now i am near to my full completion of FREVER RED!! XD

my favourite drink..*beside plain water ^^
i can really take this everyday XD
this is the only food in my house tht i dont like to eat..dont even knw wht it is..=.= taste so weird..>.<"'
ahh.. my fav chopstick and spoon.. XD

it's really frm korea!! i think it is? cause i heard some ppl in arts 3 say tht my chopsitck wasnt frm korea.. dont like it but it's their opinion..not mine.. so WTF do i care bout it? huh!!

pretty huh? XD

nxt>>>


all this is given by ppl.. this is wht i manage to find cause it's aroundme tht time..
all this was never bought by me.. other ppl gave to me de..

reason why i do this post? TOO BORED... T____T
i dwn do hw le.. so brain sucking energy..=.=
anyhow, this is all till now XD will update if there's any new..^^

Thx fr reading..LOL

in pain

jst too much pain to endure. the pain it's like thousands of nails and needle poked into one small heart. all this needle covered 99% of the heart till there is no space fr the heart to bleed. no space fr it to bleed out the blood. so pain tht it's unbearable. and i cant do anything to make it better. jst blaming myself fr all this pain. wan to end it but i dwn leave behind her alone. the pain she endure is more than mine but she stay strong fr me. why cant i stay strong fr her too? i dont understand, if u love someone wont u do anything to make her happy? but why mine is contradicting? why am i here? why she have to suffer? wht she did wrong till she deserves this? i cant stop the pain till now. who knw how pain it is? the needles was full of thorns and blunt. when the needle enters the heart it scratches the wall and pierce through roughly. then all this nails and needles are poked in deeper into the heart and smashed wit a hammer wit the nails and needles inside. then let all the pieces of spiky and sharp nails and needles to scratch the lining of the heart frm within.

dont ask why or wht, jst ignore this post. dont knw where to say it to.

TT_TT ~ My DiEt~

Hi to all ^^ What a nice day today, don't you guys think so? XD
FXXX LA!! walao.. ma de!! why rain wor? i very hungry know? =.=

The story begin on friday..=)
Came back from home after tuition, ate maggi as dinner XD *curry flavor oo*
dont remember if i went out after tht? but i dont think i did? then i sleep at 6 the next morning cause i spent my precious and suppose-to-be-chem-time replaced wit the movie.
I accidently browse through the preview and notice that a guy in the show really catch my attention. LOL so practical of me XP Show name? Hei Tang Ma Qi Duo *i like ah wei oo XP*


On Saturday,
suppose to be attending chemistry tuition, i wan to go XD but the inner me doesnt really prefer the morning call XP and i was blessed wit good news that the tuition was cancelled due to PIBG in school. *hot gossip bout the PIBG, anybody wan knw? ask me privately ^^*
I woke up at 3pm XD cause of the macchiato show. Then notice no food on table. So i cooked mamee * itik flavour, nice knw? i like mamee's noodle more cause it's more smooth and not soggy not saying tht maggi is..-.-* then in the evening, i ate maggi cause i was in the room, unaware tht all the food had jst finish being sucked up by my dad, mom and sis..T_T hate them!!
nite? LOL WHY MY LIFE IS SO FUNNY? XD I ATE MAGGI AGAIN!! LOL T_T i jst "LOVE" my life..

On Sunday,
Go to tuition, reach tuition around 8.45 pm. I thought i was the late one, but in the end? I JST HATE MY LIFE MORE. I was the among the earliest all THANKS TO MY STUPID SLEEPING BRAIN!! wasted my sleeping time =.= then when i reach home, Mummy was not around!! she went to massage again..T_T leaving me unfeed..*sobs* then i cooked maggi again..*curry flavour* then in the evening? maggi again.. she was too lazy to cook..then nite? wht do u guess? if it's maggi then u are wrong XD it's... MAMEE *huhu i jst hate my fstupid life*

On Monday,
Too fed up that i've been eating instant noodles fr the past 3 days=.=
In the morning i wen to tuition, pass by a dimsum shop XD bought some to eat XP the only real food i've been eating fr the past 3 days. Then, came back frm tuition.. NO FOOD AGAIN!! u knw wht? WTF LO~~ Complained to mom and all i get is a bowl of maggi again..=3=
then.. MY SAVIOUR IS HERE FR THE RESCUE~!! ahhhhttt~!!!
sw called me out to go and eat..but the maggi was on the table already..so i ate it b4 i wen out.
then we all went to mp's food court to eat, chicken rice claypot *shared wit tong*
then after tht we went to giant. i bought yogurt drink again XD too tempting to resist ^^
then i bought keropok somemore =D

at last some real food.. >.< so touched.. thx sw ^^
well, nothing to say anymore. Just posting this up for the sake of update :3

Thx fr reading ^^

>> KnOw YoUrSelF BeTteR<<

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.


I find that this test is kind of accurate with the accuracy of 90%.
Like this test XD I actually took it frm Zhi-Qin's blog Xp
here is the link>>http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

do try it k? ^^

==YOu KnOw WhaT?==

You know what? After what happen to me today. I can't endure the pain anymore. I can't!! I am dying within!! I don't want to live this kind of stupid life anymore.
Today once after i did my PA graph, i had this thought to actually ran away from everything. I do know? I really take my time to plan where am i going and what i am going to do for a living.
I plan to ran to somewhere far but not too far and i had my relatives there. Then i am going to find a job that can actually support my living cost and some extra for myself to spend. But after long thoughts, i find myself no difference with those "chickens" in Geylang. *no kidding man=.=*
I set another aim again this time, but i don't know how long can i keep it going myself. I really don't know. Recently i have been an ignorant savage, thinking i knew a lot, but i actually knew nothing at all. NOTHING!! My stupid confidence is really biting me back hard.
I should have known all this. I think i need to keep my mouth shut up, focus more on studies and revise more as I HAVE NO MORE TIME anymore. Should not spend my time like pouring water man.
What is worst? i know what i've said now won't last me long. So, i am going to find a victim.
A person who is blur, know nothing like me, can stay back home anytime, doing the same course as i am, or might be slightly smarter so when i ask questions he/she can answer me back.
God, please help me to find someone like this so that i can improve my studies and really score for my next test or exam. I really wish that i can have good grades for once. *prays*
Thank You God.
And not to forget God, I do wish that I wont be lazy as usual. I wish that u can grant me some "hardworking-ness" in me. PLEASE!! T.T As i am in desperate need for this. REALLY DESPERATE. So God, i can suggest You a way to grant me this hardworking-ness.
It's by making sure that I wont have much chance to online and i have sufficient time to read what i suppose to know so i can apply what i've read then i can get good grades.Thank You.
I know i asked too much, but the only thing i can do now is pray and start to do some homework i delayed long time ago...LONG TIME ago..=.= *slaps self*
Oh, not to forget the last way to get my kiasuness back. I just remember, that is never comfort me after test and keep on say bout how the answer suppose to be. I think that would be a very super powerfull. I suppose so? @.@

I think i talk to much d. Gonna go and bathe and do some, * at least some? * work..T.T


Thx fr reading..