attacks?? @@

AhhhHHHH~!! My cakes are under ants attack!!

T.T

I should have finished the whole damn box before I went for a nap.

And now gazillions *exact figure had been exaggerated greatly* of ants are attacking the box, invading my cakes' privacy!!

The good news is, I have another 2 mini boxes downstairs. IN THE FRIDGE. XD
kakaka... hah~!! in your faces you ..you wht ever ants~!! hahaha..

well.. tomorw gt test.. but too lazy to get my but off the bed and chairs
but thanks to my laziness i manage to built up a territory fr myself in the fridge area..hahaha
so darn proud of it.. but really excruciating to see my cakes to be eaten..
suppose to be 5 boxes but now.. only 2..huhu..T.T
curse you sista~!!!

damn frust today.. wanted to accomplish few lil tiny task
but keep on having prob~.. argh~!
stupid lappy.. *sorry but i have to say this lappy..time fr me to be truthfull towards myself..*
keep on having prob..=.=
but you have been wit me all this time..i knw..
we have gone through thick and thin together..nothing can separate us.. i knw tht..
but this time you really cross the line when you jammed fr the 1 minute~!! DAMN U~!!
was expecting better frm u.. very dissapointed..really very dissapointed..tsk tsk~!!

hmm.. nothing much to say now..if there's any i will update it later on..
thx fr reading..^^

~LuV U~

have you ever fall in love?
but knew d and they did not care?
have you ever felt like crying?
but knew you'll get no where?
have you ever watch them walk away?
not wanting them to go?
and whispered "i love you" softly
not wanting them to know
you cried all night in misery
and almost went insane..
there's nothing in this world
tht causes soo much pain
if i could choose between love and death
i think i've rather die
love is fun, but it hurts too much..
and the price you pay is high
so i say, DUN FALL IN LOVE
you'll be hurt before its through
you'll see my friend i ought to knw
cause i fell in love wit you...

continue..

Hi~! continue from yesterday..^.^ just some pics and description..cause there's no camera with me.. only person that keeps on taking pics is Jim himself..

as shown below( this is a part of them only tht goes to the party..):

there you go~.. this is the 2 b'day guy.. one monitor and another one ruben..hahahaXD
jim is the one act cool one.. graham is the one always wondering and think bout things one..
some description:

Jim.. a PS2 pro..(so wht?-.- lanc pi arr..)
our class monitor..likes to laugh and talk ba.. dont really knw him tht well..
only knw he is rich cause he gt the touch-screen hp and he is damn proud of it..
one thing i knw bout him i think he is patient ba.. and normal la..hahahaXD but he seem to me he dun talk a lot..

Graham @ Ruben.. a very yau sieu person.. at first think he very kelien..need more care..cause he is always the emo kid.. but he is NOT!! he diam-diam sometimes will kuai lan one..=.= very kiam pak.. so dont be soft hearted to him knw ppl out there?? but he is a good person la..

* sorry everyone..unable to load their pics up...cause was not allowed to do so..sorry..


NEXT>>>

tada~! the cake..hahaha.. nice not?? try to read the words on top..kakaka..XD
cute le??hahaha.. this is the cake after the blowing and wishes.. and after all this.. you dwn to see...-.- trust me...really..hahaha..XD
next will be..


some ppl frm the party~! ^o^
hahaha..XD let me intro:

frm left infront:
dominic, ye chien, joeal

frm behind left:
han way, tong, regina, elaine, guan ling



frm left: elicia, siou wen, and dom and Y auntie


not to frgt.. the very important person in this outing..
Raymond.. he was the one who actually let us.. all of us in the house.. eventhough he frgt's bout elicia and siou wen when they just come dwn frm their cars..lol.. so evil raymond..
and he was the one i said yesterday bout washing the floor..hahaha
wait.. you all knw which one not?? not the ah pek knw? not the one wearing glasses knw?? not the one gt white hair one knw? not the one looking below one knw??
hahaha.. he's the one tht wit a t-shirt one..yup..tht's him..

<< this is before they post fr the above piece if not mistaken.. see how they laugh..lol..hahahaXD

lastly...
some pics to add in.. frm the party..


sad jim... *dono why he like to act sad..

posing nicely..^^
hahaha..bad cameraman.. so noob..
omg.. kh look so evil..and why is he looking at han way like tht??
too busy eating.. only siou wen gt time to pose..hahaha..
elmo and han way ^^
dono wht they doing also..XD
prepare to launch..3 2 1..
i think the launch failed..hahaha

the F4 back to rock..
no.. no..T.T dun cut me.. no..

tht's all ba.. ya..think so la..

and to di di.. jie today last day online witout limit..cannot webcam d starting frm tomorw.. and remember wht you promised me d.. no online till your exam finish k??
be guai..

A PaRtY~!! XP

Wooot!! fr today.. really busy and tiring.. i had nothing to wrote bout yesterday..so today was suppose to writ down plans on tomorw..but it seems to me it's already 26th so..haiz..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIM!!!
may your wishes to be a pilot actually came true..hahaha..XD

yesterday's party..hmm.. actually telling the truth.. felt like... lil boring la...
i dono why.. so cant explain..i just felt like tht.. dun really have the mood when see ppla round me ..hahaha.. i wanted to play but like no one want to play..
and poor Raymond..he alone washed the floor.. wanted to help but only gt one broom..somemore.. i'm not tryin to criticise him la.. but frm the way he washed the floor i was quiet worried on when he will finish up..poor him..hahaha..XDD

hmm.. somemore see the guys playing PS2...=.=..ish..
so darn pro!! i will sure to lose to them..sob..T.T
felt so noob..sad.. wan to practise my gaming skills...since i left it to rust fr a long time ago d.. but worry that i will addict to it later..haiz..so much things to think bout..

after today's party felt like lil bit headache dono why..and heaty..i think i got fever d..hahahaXD
but still able to write this blog down and post comments..hahaha.. proud of myself..

tomorw morning gt tuition somemore.. wanted to go back early.. but seems like not nice to leave the party early.. since not havin any emergency or even important things...
today i saw hw teach elaine how to play the base fr the song.. hahaha.. sorry la i curi learn..lol
hahaha..XD cause was so amused by the guitar's sound..hahaha..XD

somemore...err..nothing much actually happen la..
oh ya.. i took 3 pudding..lol..hahaha.. i also dono who havent took it yet..cause when i thought it was extra on the table.. but it wasnt..T.T so damn sorry bout it.. i thought i ask someone...then he/she told me it's extra so i took and ate it..lol.. sorry la..
shouldn't be so crazy wit desserts..hahaha..XD

thought tat today will have a lot of game to play.. planned some and ask around but no one agrees on it..haiz.. in the end no game.. only talk.. but it was nice to play at the playground..miss the olden days..hahaha..XD

i think i will write till here la.. cause i am lil bit tired d..wan to sleep d.. nite nite..^.^
see you all tomorw..XP

@@ tummy aching..sob..T.T

tummy hurt like hell~!! argh!!! sob..T.T very pain..huhu... i dun like it when i have constipation...

and dun laugh at me..=.= i also don't know how come i had this..sob.. 2 days d le..sob..huhu..

today i got back my maths paper result.. i expected i would get that kind of marks but i don't know i felt the pain so much.. i was so damn disappointed with myself.. very very disappointing.. What the Heck~!! but it has already happen and i dun have anything to say bout it already.. cause it is my own fault.. so lets just leave the matter there..

having an outing on this Saturday..a BBQ..hahaha..but sob.. haiz..i have no extra money already.. totally broke till gonna drop...haiz.. but what to do?? life is like that and i have no right to complain..
-.- why sound like so old neh?? hahaha..nvm la..

sien arrr..i think i will start to study d..i dun have much time to restudy later..must do it asap..since result so bad..

I've talk to my mom today after i came back from school..went back early cause too moody d..haiz.. i told her bout my results..she dun really like it..but it has already happen..so..i dono wht else i can do..but..to change to college.. mom say if bro go to private uni..i have to find a college that doesnt need to spend so much money..haiz..hinz.. i also dono la..

i am livin in a very slow-pace of my own world..haiz.. must jia you..hwaiting!!!

today pui no go school..sob..T.T i pack extra food fr her to share wit me..but she never come to school..she never tell me somemore..huhu...t.t
nvm la..i think i knw why she never come..poor her..*pats to pui..
dun sad..auntie gip you lollipop okie?? buy by fatin gip by me one..hehehe..

hope to see everyone around me happy..i dwn affect other ppl d..
i really dun knw i give such big impact on ppl..thxs fr being my friends.. ^.^

if you all sad pls tell me k?? eventhough i can't do much.. but at least i can be your listener or even you lil black book.?? or pats?? so pls do tell me when you were sad k?? i am sincere..cause i can see a person is sad no matter how they hide..hahahaha.XD

today after recess i saw han way like very sad and frust.. i think he having problem..i dono wht happen.. but felt sorry cant help...haiz.. such useless friend i am..mm..

dono wht's wrong wit me..so long d no pimples..dono why now gt breakouts..sob..T.T
huhu.. i really dun like pimples on my face..sad..
if i saw one on my face, i will definately sure to pinch it..a bad habit of mine..it's like so damn irritating to me if i touch my face and there is something there that is not suppose to be there.. you get wht i mean?? haiz.. nvm la..

today what some more happen??hahaha..
today kh actually call yk to say sorry to the whole class.. was real proud of him..hahahaXD
i was like shocked when i heard him say so.. lol..and when i saw yk's reply.. i cant stop laughing at all..me and tong was like laughing all away..lol..hahahaXD

hmm.. ya..might because i ate 2 icecream today..so i got stomachache?? i dono la..
i like the blueberry flavour..but..i ate everyday d..so must change d..

jim , ray and kh tell me that the corneto is only rm1.20.. dono they liying ot me not..tomorw i go check the pricing..if it's really rm1.20 i am sure to buy..but i dont think so la..cause i bought taht day the auntie say it's rm2.00 haiz..dono la..

then nothing happen d ba?? if gt also i cant remember now.. hahaha..XD

oh..ya..i'm seacrhing fr this song.. who ever has it.. please send it to me pls??

thx ya..i was finding fr it's song..cause i gt the mv only..lol..hahaha

thx you~!! ^.^

SoLuTiOns.. >.<

hehehe..today i dont really knw what i am going to say also..cause i find that updating a blog everyday really consume a lot of my time, and thoughts and not to left out, my energy..haiz..
nothing really happen today fr me..but one thing shocking fr me is that.. i saw her so worried..i felt so damn worried for the thing she worries bout and also her..hinz.. really very worried..

Today i've made up my mind to actually study d..i dont wan to be slacking off from my studies and be blur fr the rest of my life..i want to actually understand what i am suppose to learn and at least manage to do the questions and got it correct..i really do hope so..

We'll see how by then..hahaha..XD

oh...stomachache is back again to hunt mt down..sob..T.T
very tiring lo.. should drink more honey...enen..yes..more honey..
lol..it came out so wrong..hahaha..

today what so funny har?? oh ya.. i remember.. lol.. i dono my bro cant recognise my voice and differentiate it frm me and my lil sis.. shocking dude..~!!! lol..hahaha
my bro made a call back home to ask me few ques.. but i pick up the call when i was eating... i only manage to say hello..then he siad.."yi pheng..jie jie le?? chiao ta lai ken wo jiang hua"
i was like..hem mek?? *my mouth was stuffed wit nice big dang yuen wit filling of black saseme..lol..hahaha..XD
then he scold me say i play play..lol..hahaha..
*but how could he not knw i am YI TING~!! hinz.. wa ae ah kor le..sob..T.T
nvm la..once in a while it's counted as an entertainment..lol..

today just wan to study and talk nia..dwn play d..hahaha..
starting frm next week wont online d.. wait..i mean less online..will only online frm 9 to 11..after that off you go..hahaha..

really very ashamed of my result.. wait.. not very.. it's EXTREMELY...
haiz.. but i deserved it i think this post will be my last post bout my failure d..i have no time to complain nia.. i will work hard now.. and try my very best~!! ^.^

YESH~!!! hahaha..XD
Wish me Good Luck guys~!!!
THX fr being there fr me..sorry to make you all worry and frust and angry... really didn't mean it.. felt like i've make a lot of ppl angry..hahaha..paiseh la..XD

It's All MY Fault~!

i pretty much dono wht to talk bout today..but i guess today my post will be boring and long..i mean real damn long...
As normal..today i woke up late again..i dun really like it..when i woke up late..haiz..it's like i have to rush around try to fix up everything..
but today i find out something very precious to me..very very..precious..
my old reflection..
while i was walking today..i look down the floor..
i was lil bit happy when i saw an old part of me is scattering around my shadow today..

wht all my teachers say is correct..
I AM AN IDIOT!!
wow..hard to find me say i am wrong..haiz...
but i am and i admit it..
it's because of my stupidity tht i've get into this..
and i really really hate myself..
felt like murdering myself today wit a big sharp knife or...even jump down frm the building..
and make sure myself after the 18th sec i am dead..
but before all tht..i want to scream my lungs out on why i am born in this world..
i really dun understand how i can change to such a person?? i really dun knw??
just came out of my mind bout this quote..
"when the going gets tough, the tough gets going.."
hahaha..lol when think of this..
but this make me wanna slap myself more..
i dono wht got into me..
it's like i am being vodoo-ed or wht ever shit..
i became the evil part of me that has been caged fr a long time and now it's out and craze fr freedom in me... i dun like it..T.T
i felt so vulnerable to all this stupid temptations.. when i try to recall the things i've done..
it seems that there is no point of return to me..
such prolonged laziness has been my 2nd nature..i hate it...
how can i become like this..
today in class teachers have been givin us the papers back..when i saw my marks and the teachers comments.. to my shock that.. What they said bout me is true..
It's so darn true and yes without thinking much bout it..I've nodded and agree to what they've said..
when everything was out today i just notice that..oh..i'm in Form 6 now..
i suppose to have passion to study more compare to the time i'm in Form 5..cause everything i ask that time now can be taught to me and in details.. i mean imagine that?? limitless knowledge to be learn and to be used..practised..but..it's all wasted in the end??

now..it's so clear to me that..
ya..everything is my own fault..
being lazy has a price to pay..the that price is damn "pretty"

the old me and the new me is so in damn contradic...
i cant believe i've become such person..and now when i realised i am such person..i'm scared of myself.. it's like..i donno where's the line any more between my concious and the opposite..
i really dun knw.. wht have happen to me?? i felt so useless..and..it's like..i've been relaying on them too much..hoping my friends can help me in getting my oldself back..
do i need a time alone?? so that i knw how to be independent?? might be it's a good way...but..i dono if i can bear it.. the loneliness??
knowing myself too well has done no good to me..
i keep on escape my duty and i become more rebellious..
wtf... now when my mom talk to me..i felt so pressurised..damn it..
i felt so weak when people advising me..

argh~!!! i felt like saying to myself.."please go get a life you lame loser...=.="
hahaha..
ya.. i should go get a life..

today have been quiet busy..cleaning my room..woosh.. need bout 1 whole day only the room can be cleaned..
hahaha..a long the cleaning.. found my SIM card~!! woot~!!! ahhh..so happy bout this..
cause i found out that my hp prob was with it's battery and not the motherboard..lol..
at last,,get to have back my old hp..hahaha..
i think this is a sign to me so that i will work hard..
By working hard..i will find wht i wan and manage to giv some other good impacts in other aspect..
today is wht a day~!! ^.^

* swt..today blog real damn serious..hahaha..

Wht me feelin today??

TODAY..
as usual i woke up late again..lol..hahaha..
i think most of you knw how i look like in the mornin>>>

today??
MUET exam.. one word to describe..
ReLaxing...
weird huh?? i dono i will be so relax also..but not all la of course.. cause the listening part..really arr...i tell you arr.. i was so damn concentrating on the voice knw?? frm the moment the voice clip was played i have been listening to it..and i try to fill in the blanks also..mana tau..kns punya..so chi tan kau..lau wei...
the voice clip say 'You are given 1 minute to ans the question."
i was like wht?? What the Heck??!!
em chi ngap mat yeh lo...
now the voice clip chi ma being fast forward liao si bo??
not even one i wrote down..dono wht to put in also..have to pok yat pok..haiz..
this time my MUET sure fail one la..hahaha...
the rest then ok lo...

today i observe ppl again..hahaha...my habit..hmm..
today i find out few ppl like very quiet and extreme noisy..weird..
first one... my class ppl as usual lo..
me, tong, yc and celine talking.. kh and ray also..
all cha bo ma..so ma talk talk and play lo..
then..han way and joeal pulak went to find ppl to talk lo..always never see them also..unless in class la..if they can go out they sure go mia..then..
rashwin..hahaha..sudah biasa nin yan yeng tou em kin..hahaha..
izzul and yoeng kang>>>

dono wht they reading also..hahaha..

but i saw today graham like emo..i dono why..he like darn emo till his eyes red red..
but he look like a girl today..might because of his eyes like watery nia..hahaha..GIRL!!
need more care nia kua..since he always kena ignore..i think la..
then jim also today like very quiet nia..like very serious also..dono why...
tau nau pai liao si bo?
always stay happy and smile la you all!! okie?? =)
i dono he put so high hopes in MUET..might because e ye cha bo si Band 6 e lang kua..
em chai ia la..might be it's just me of being too sensitive..hahaha..

After test, may fong, pui, chia wen, siou wen and I wen to mp and dp..lol..
i dono i have fall in love wit the icecream sold in IGLOO>.< so damn likin it..hahaha
actually wanted to buy but frgtten d.. suddenly terthink wan to buy but already at the DP's main door d..hahaha..
dono wht got into me..i run like siao cha bo like tat to the shop to buy the icecream..hahaha..but luckly may fong gt pei me..if not sia suei..hahaha..
then...we bought a present fr mei hwei..
may fong come out the money first..hhohoho..not cheap o.. may fong gt $90 one..after buy only gt $5 nia..i was like =.= so expensive??
but fr a friend..so i think wont hurt ba..once in awhile..
then after that we walk and talk and laugh as usual..
aaah...ya...today b4 go back saw celine and hw..hahaha..celine was laughing at may fong cause may fong scolding hw..hahaha.. she tell me may fong look like the msn monkey's emoticon like that..full of expression..hahaha..

then err...nothing d lo..after that...
MY PAIN~!!

i gt stomachache again today...T.T
really dun like it..huhu...
worry i tomorw cant go to school..cause really..really..feels like there is some monster in my stomach....
haiz..have gone to pang sai..but..i thought once nia can kau tim d..mana tau..
3X d knw?? suffering lo...

must stay healty la..if not i cant play and laugh around..sob..

i think tht's all fr today la..hahaha..
and lastly..MISS YOU SO MUCH~!!! want my song asap..
hehehe..i think you knw who i am saying..hehehe..**

A piece of my mind...T.T

i wrote this cause i really havin a few communication problems wit my friends.. and i dun like it when it happen..i really hope that ppl can understand me well.. and see wht i am tryin to say..
firstly, this post is not mean to hurt you or offend you or wht okie??
just another way fr me to tell you all wht i feel..
cause i just found out that i'm tht hard to be understood.. i duno why also..
hahaha...lol..might be jst me nia..
but thx pui cause she has been understanding and really knw wht i'm doing..*hugs..thx


okie..
i dun really knw how to explain myself and usually when i wan to explain it actaully gt worst..
connie have tried to fix my usage of words b4 but it seems tht it doesnt work..hahaha..
poor her..*pats..
so...pls try your hardest to understand wht i'm tryin to say k??

i sometimes do things tht i am not suppose to do.. i dono why knw?? but something jst come in me and i jst do it..eventhough my friends will warn me bout the consequences..but..i just do it..
i actually do listen to them knw??
I REALLY DO LISTEN TO YOU ALL~!!! i swear i did..
just that.. it's so me to actaully ignore your advise and just keep in my head..
i admit sometimes and most of times i do frgt bout wht i promised to you guys..
but i keep it in mind..and try to control myself..
i just need time to do it..i'm sorry if i cant do it so fast..
might be it's just me..
another one more thing bout me, i think you all dun like is that i rebel and ignore and scold you when i am doing things i'm not suppose to do..

i think i need to make it clear.. not only 1 or 2...more ppl dun really understand me..
you can say i'm stupid but tht's how my brain works..


you can advice me..say me.. and stuff.. you hope that i can change..i do knw tht..
in condition..

1st~
DO NOT repeat your advice to me more than 3X continuously.. but if you find tht i never change..tell me.. remind me ..i really dun mind....

**add on...frgt to say that...i am those sau lyun em sau ngang*cantonese.. means..sou luan pu sou ing.. means.. take soft dun take hard.. ... something wrong..but i dono how to explain... hahaha..lol....
means..i hope that..you say me and not giving me a big hu ha tht i'm not changing and say me bout it.. i knw we have discuss bout this but...
this part of me is the hardest to understand..really.. i mean seriously knw??

2nd~
dun think tht i am really that bad when i do bad stuff k??
just that you always see the outer me..how i act and stuff..but you dono wht i'm thinking..
i might say i cant but inside me i actually i'm really trying hard...
so pls..dun come and tease me saying tht i'm not trying hard...
i knw i can change... just a matter of will or not only...and TIME...

begging fr time and also pls losen the lines..

.
and i will try my very best to change...
this is just my opinion..i'm sorry if you felt offended or wht?? but it's just me..T.T



i am just saying it out and not tryin to make you feel like you're evil bad bad ppl knw??
i really do care on wht ppl think of me and i knw it is fr my own good..i really do...

and doesnt mean tht in first place i never spoke out means you;re correct..
might be you're wrong..you're not sure bout me..so pls dun judge me and straigh away sentence me to death...
make things clear wit me..
i think tht, tht would be only why to knw wht i'm thinking.. i do have reason on wht i doing..
ask me pls...

thx fr reading.. ^.^

ppl around me~!!

okie..

my very first post..hahaha..

i'm gonna write the ppl around me..

really thx you guys fr being there fr me

i really do appreaciate it a lot..

especially my gang ppl..

lazy wan to list out le..but i think you guys knw..

not frgtting my friends in kl..hahaha.. miss you guys a lot..>.<

hope to hear fr you all soon.. cause my hp spoilt and sim lost..

haiz.. chin ae si chin cha suei..haiz..

but.. behind all the clouds sure to be a rainbow awaits..lol..

so..

lik wen, pui xiang, yoke wan, may fong, chin yean, becky, connie, chin yee, gee hui, shwu pei, sherminn, betsy.. where most of you in kl...huhu...T.T

pls keep intouch wit me k?? dun frgt bout me..

even now we less talk to each other cause very bz..and also..new friends around us..

but do remember i am always your friends..

FRIENDS FREVER~!!

a poem fr my friends..^.^

My friend

when inside you are hurting

and only I know

I wish the forces of nature

were at my command

I would reverse time

and make you smile

when deep inside you

a storm is raging

and your soul is but a boat

upon the lonely seas

I want to calm the waves

and bring you home

I am always here if you need me

to cry with you if you need me

to laugh with you

to pray with you

to run with you

to live life with you

You are my friend

I will never leave you

I promise... (^^)v

Hello WOrld~!! >.<

Hi..~!! XD
Just open this blog..hahaha..
i have always wanted to open a blog..
but always delayed it cause i dun have time..
haiz..
but now..~!! hahaha..XDD
i manage to open one d..
if i tell you wht actually happen b4 i open this blog you sure
will be shocked!! hahaha.. but cant really tell..
sorry ne..>.<

This is my first post in my OWN blog..woot~!!! hahaha.. XD
so eager to see wht i gonna write next..hehehe..