The End of 2011 but the Beginning of 2012

Hi there everyone! I know it's been quite a long time since i've last updated my blog.. A very bad habit of mine.. which is lazy.. T^T i knw i should do some self-reflection asap.. oh..well.. who cares? =P

okie... cut the crap..

i usually will post blog when i'm super happy or down or too-free-till-nothing-to-do.. but this time i post cause i have something that i wan to say from deep within my heart but i can't say.. cause i know what i say will only hurt ppl mostly.. rather than making them happy..
people nowadays only like to be praised.. i knw i would be happy too if ppl praise me.. but i only will praise when i really think i should praise.. but for me.. most of the time.. i really have a "NORMAL LA" comment.. and when ppl praise me i also have no feelings.. =p

i jst wan to say one thing.. i'm a 100% giver and 50% taker.. what i take i will give back.. but if the things that i take is very good, i'll try my very best to return it super good.. but when things goes bad.. u knw la.. in short.. i'll pay back double..
so.. to restrain frm ppl being hurt by me.. =D
i am practicing i see and i forget.. because when expectations meat reality.. dreams will forever stay as dreams..

I've turned 21 this year.. feeling content.. not super happy..
(dont be mistaken that i'm not happy with the celebration! I AM SUPER HAPPY WITH THE SURPRISE! REALLY! =D)
but the fact that I have no awesome savings in my banks, still rely on parents (it's a good thing =P)and u knw la..

I hope i can earn a lot of money in the future and make my mom happy..

New Year Resolution:
1. I just wish my family and friends are all healthy and happy and safe.
2. Super good results and no longer lazy anymore! =P
3. SLIM ARR!! ==
4. i wan X XXXXXXXXX XXXX XXXXX XX and XX XXX XXXXX XXX XXXX XXXXX.. (secret) xD


a few pics i've taken myself!





thanks fr reading!!
p/s: Beethoven

HOliday's Buzz =3=

Hey all!! New sem has begin now. I was kinda busy an lazy to update my blog eventhough i still continue to take pics a lot..hehehehe.. Oh well.. nothing much happened.. I just moved in to a new rental house near Uni area and busy with new sem thingy.. I think this sem is too fast.. cause next week would be my test 1 already.. SHOCKING!! @@ I havent even fully slept in class yet. Haiz.. 

Well, the tough gets going, the going gets tough! =D

So, just a few pics from my holiday things~ =P

I tried to learn guitar but it seems that i dont have the patience to learn them after like 30mins.. I QUIT! ^^

I had some thing else to fill in my time~ muakakak~

Okie~
So besides playing with my cousins and farming and eating and jalan-jalan and stuff.. One of my favourite event during the holiday was this>>>

IT"S WHAT WRITTEN ON THE CAKE!! ^^

The we went to Arena.. WHICH we are supposed to go to KTV gogo..but somehow we ended up in there~

p/s: It was my first time being "sort-out" by the cops around 2am while we wanted to leave.. We saw someone was fighting at the door and we rewind to our sits and BOOM! Lights on and "Lelaki sebelah sini, Perempuan sebelah sini!" My reaction was, "WTF?! @@ PLEASE DONT CALL MY PARENTS!"

But oh well, didn't get arrested also.. THANK GOD!! =3=

 I can't take my eyes of this cute little squeezable chics!!! argh!!!! they are so small and yellow and soft and fat and a lil bit stinky.. =P

 Went to the beach! ^^

 Ate rojak and cendol and guess what? We met an angmo couple with a baby! the baby so cute.. but he dislike me..=.=

 SO!! RAYA TIME!!! THANKS TO KAK PYA!!! =D
Had a blast during raya time ^^

Okie.. I think that's it fr now.. will post more when i am more rajin..hahaha =D
BB and thanks fr scanning thr my post~ ^^

p/s: listening to How To Love- Sam Tsui cover (<3 it)

By the end of July...

Hello all! Actually I wanted to blog about my daily stuff everyday but I became a lil bit more lazier than usual since it's sem break now. =P

I've been busy gaming, watching movies,anime,drama and etc, visiting relatives, going for trips and so on... =D

I didn't snap a lot of pics in the end cause I'm getting more and more lazy.. hehehe..

Well..

First, nice things to talk bout..

I'm getting my license soon!! Awesome!! I never thought that the thoughts of having license is so much fun. I mean, I'm starting to plan what I can do with my license. =D

But....=3= I still got to admit that driving is still a weird thing to me. I don't know.

There's something bothering me everytime I'm driving. I've became more coward once I'm getting old..T^T Worried I might meet an accident.. aHHHH!!! andweji!! T3T

Short trip to Port Dickson.. I totally didn't take pic..T^T *emo* cause 1 day trip.. and i frgt to charge my hp.. huhu..

But on 2nd thought... The water there is err... a lil bit... not pleasent anymore.. the water's so damn dark.. =.= I couldn't let myself into the water..lol.. Had BBQ.. xD

I've went to relatives(mommy's side) house and played X-box for 5 hrs.. Never yet for this 3 months sem break have I sweat myself like that moment.. AWESOME!!! Besides that,going to the garden to pick some fruits like I've said on my last post.. xD

Ok...so....

Secondly, bad things to talk bout...

(it's jst somethings that I have in mind.. no big deal.. since blog have been like my online diary..=P)

My 3rd aunt called me today and we talked for while.. Basicly, she wanted me to go KL for while for some help.. Well, I'm OK with that.. Then we talked bout something else..

something that i particullarly don't wanna talk bout cause for me it's a nuisance matter..

It seems that my bro have totally ignored my mom and the family members i presume?

I wouldn't want to care bout him at all.. But since my aunt wanted me to ask my mom on the spot whether did he called home once in while or even deliver some money back home and so on cause the last time my aunt(his's GOD MOTHER) talked to him was APRIL(thank god it's this year)..

So, I've asked my mom. My mom said he didn't call back because he's busy with his work. He didn't deliver some money home because it's not enough for himself to use as well.Told my aunt bout my mom's opinion and she also disagree with his attitude..

Even my cousin could come back once in a while every month.. why he couldn't? =.=

In my opinion, All this covering up for him is bullshit. Sending money home i would definately understand because when we live else where, money sure to be a problem.. but not even calling home or answering calls for his own mother or even sms? I'm speechless.. But well.. that has nothing to do with me.. I just hope he got his own brains where ever he goes..=D

Next thing was I'm 21 this year..T^T I'm actually very happy.. but when I have those reflection-of-self moments.. EMO!! I'm 21 and my savings is not enough for me to last 1 year.. I'm fat.. and ugly.. and still living under my parent's help.. and didn't manage to buy my own insurance and stocks yet.. and so many things more.. T____T and worst.. my face condition is getting old!!!

well...

Thirdly, weird things to say.. =P

I've been like a baby.. sticking to my mom as often as I can within this 3 months.. There's this one day I felt so lonely eating in the kitchen alone and everyone was watching tv.. I then realise that's how my mom feels.. I don't want her to feel that way.. So i started to find out what she does daily and so on.. It was lonely.. My mom felt lonely all the way.. I hope I can come back more often every month after sem opens and spend some time with her.. =D

Then hor i keep on dreaming weird things.. unexpected ppl from my real life appear in my dreams.. so weird.. and this morning's dream i can't remember much but in the end i was running really hard.. then the other day I dreamt i was in a muscular man's arm..=.= shocking! then the other other day.. i dreamt i was on stage... weird..T^T

WOSH! So, that's it for today..=D

Some random pics i took myself~

Thanks for reading! ^^

p/s: listening to Ugly by 2NE1

Nothing Big..o.0

HI all!! I know it's kinda more than a month since my last post! xD what to do? IMMA LAZY~

So? Progress in my life now?

let me cut it short here.. only things that i can remember now..
I start my driving lesson last week i think.. both car and motor at the same time.. got my my L now.. but got to wait 1 month before they allow me to take my P.. so still waiting..
am having issue with my driving tutor too.. he's a bit touchy person which i am totally hate it.. i got bruises on my legs because he tried to touch my leg..=.= *toot*
the story was.. 1st day of practical.. he hold my hands telling me that he wanted to teach gear thingy.. Which i personally think that there is NO NEED to hold my hands..he can jst show me like how the gear looks like.. it's so damn obvious.. then he touch, poke and point at my left leg.. which is making me piss off on the spot and i warned him bout it.. but he scold me instead saying i was very annoying asking a lot of questions and being lebih.. but i still insisted not to be poked or touched again or else i would have to beat him up..=.=t

and the next day..what i said was proven with evidence that he touched and poked me..cause my leg have bruises on it!!! stupid person.. got me so agitated!
i took a picture for safe keeping.. so that if i need to make any complain i could prove it and this is to prevent him from doing anything off the limit!
so the very nxt day was my motor class but he got to fetch me to the center... so i asked him again is it necessary to touch me.. and he ask me why.. so i told him my hand and leg have bruises now.. and he gave a super reaction of saying "really?! i also dont wan touch u all la.. u all so dirty! my hands more clean..."
From what he said, definitely he is scared that i would file up complain towards him.. so he better keep his hands to himself~ =.=

So, last month nothing much happened..
i wen to my aunt's dusun to pick up A LOT of durian, mangosteen and sour lime~ xD

There's a moment where i jst stop to rest in dusun.. for like 10 secs to catch my breathe.. There were like 10 mosquitoes sucking my blood at that moment!! OMG!!! This is one hell of an expensive experience.. I even got sun stroke fr while.. my face was red for the whole few days.. T^T i looked stupid and drunk..=.=
took some pics too..but lazy to upload..T^T sry~
nxt time maybe! xD

I've also cut down my online hours.. Cause now.. even online is kinda bored for me.. haiz..
and my weight gained..
Talking bout weight.. one of the most embarrassing thing that happened to me is THE DAY..
THE DAY when i flashing my fat tummy which is wobbling to my mom but 3 men pass by my house and saw my fat tummy!! T^T *emo*

But for the moment.. everything else is very peaceful~ xD
Thanks fr reading~ ^^

p/s: listening to So Goodbye by JongHyun (SHINee) **nice song**

^.^

TI-BITS! =D

I've been VERY BORED recently..
SO I've been working very hard on finding new things to see and listen to~ hahahah!! so this is the list>>
FOR this FB's Link , full credit to the owner

4everKPOPgirL

DO CHECK IT OUT GUYS!! THIS IS SERIOUSLY NICE TO WATCH!

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okie..so.. few songs to recommend this 3 months.. if u're easily bored like i do..1 or 1.5 months.. =D

- f(x) [Hot Summer]

- Sunny Hill [Midnight Circus]

- 4Men [To Live At Least Once]

- BEAST [On Rainy Days, Fiction]

- Baek Ji Young [Average]

- FT. Island [Hello Hello]

- Secret [Starlight Moonlight]

- Kim Hyun Jung [Break Down]

# Hot Music #

- Boyfriend [Boyfriend]

- 5Dolls [Like This or That]

- N-Train [One Last Cry]

- BHG to (ft. Eun Jung) [I Love! "Always" Be Happy!]

- JiSun [Dear Wind]

- Rania [Masquerade]

- Heo Young Saeng [Let It Go]

- Jang Woo Hyuk [Time Is Over]

# Fresh Music #

- Young Ji [Not At All]

- YounHwa JaeIn [Love 1 Year]

- B1A4 [Only Learnt The Bad Thing]

p/s:listening to Neut Ge Pin Sarang (Too Late) -- G Soul
an old song..=D

Conflicts of Mind

i dont understand humans! i dont understand all these ppl!

when i dont care.. they say i'm mean and realistic..

when i care.. they say i'm not grateful and being -ve..

when i ignore totally.. they say i'm useless...

i always wonder.. whether i care or not.. does it really matter?

since you all have been busy telling me this and that on each of my comments..

am i important or not in ur life? I DONT CARE!

why do u wan to turn me into u? by putting all those comments and advice and giving me those looks when i voice out what's in my mind??then u set your mentality about me at once~ jst like tht..it's disturbing!!! i'm jst saying~

DID I ASKED FOR YOUR OPINION?

dont judge a person just by the words or sentence or phrase they used.. so everyone that talk nicely and praising u is a good person?? haha! u know better! FACE IT!

i never explained myself before..cause i am lazy,tired, and i'm not good with beautiful words..

but i jst got the feeling to write it out now.. cause there's this flame in me burning..making me so damn angry..it's like those kind of pressure cooking and not burning fire..

when i say i don't care.. means I NEED TIME!!!!!! LET ME DECIDE! it's MY LIFE!

what are u so worried bout? if u are worried.. then.. GO GET UR OWN LIFE!

it also means that i DO NOT wan to think about it at that moment! so stop raising the issue up!

but this always happens btwn me and certain aged ppl.. because they tend to be childish at their age.. but trying to keep the adult image by saying things... but some friends tell u this and that.. and some friends don't..

i'm tired.. tired of being nice to ppl that i don't like.. do not like does not mean that i hate them.. it's the center of like and hate.. i have my own ranking.. so save ur energy to rank it..

after all this long nonsense.. because humans want explanation and reason and i wanna avoid more nonsense thinking on other ppl's mind.. my main point is..

Next time.. ASK ME when it has to do about ME! don't go and decide or comment or do anything you wan that relates to ME!

dont set any image of me in ur mind.. cause.. it's my image! and then expect me to live up to the image in ur mind.. i'm neither an actress nor a puppet...

if u're reading this..and think that this post is so emo-ish and sad and angry-ish and nonsense and stuffss.. YEA IT IS! BUT!!!!! DID I ASK FOR YOUR OPINION?

THE ANSWER WOULD BE NO!!!!! so keep it to yourself and MOVE ON!

dont act all innocent and criticise this..cause it's in all of the human's mind too!

this is jst to release my anger.. so read d..u can frgt d.. no point remembering..

SUPER HOLIDAYS! =D

Hello all!! I jst came back from my fantasticly long holiday! Which is very tiring and fun too~ hahaha XD

The plan was suppose to be going to Kedah directly but since at that moment AirAsia is doing promotion. So, we took the flight to Kedah from KL instead. It was around RM58 I think. To avoid delay, I've stayed at my aunt's house for 2 nights with Ah Ma and Chen chen in KL before the flight =D

We reached during the night and headed straight to home and off to bed.

But Aunt Jess and Kak Siti cooked for us some food first before sleep. =D

The very lucky of us *chen and me* got to travel by car cause it was Wesak day.

So, in the morning, we went to the temple for pray.

Then, we go to One Utama for shopping and stuffs.

After that, we went to this Little Indian street Brickfields to watch Wesak Day's parade. There were 30 of them so i'm putting a few pics here.. If u wanna see more then click>>; this =D

Tips learned in KL: bring change on such occasion so u can give donation anytime to alot of diff association.

So during the night, Peng came over as planned. We took a taxi to LCCT and fly to Kedah.

Our flight was early in the morning, thus Chen's parents brought us to eat breakfast.

First time I tried this "Dry Kuey Teow" very simple yet so nice to eat. =D

Then we went to Chen's house to freshen up and rest for while.

Thanks to Chen and her family. We managed to eat the very famous asam fish at Jitra. ONE OF THE VERY BEST ASAM FISH I"VE HAD!! XD

The restaurant name is Restoran 5 Utara.*frgt to take pic of the shop* LOl =P

The restaurant was filled with a lot of people even it was weekday! *salutes*

The food we had->

Thai chicken feet

Fried Soft Shell Crab

Wrapped sotong

Mixed vege

and the most FAMOUS AND DELICIOUS STEAMED ASAM PEDAS FISH! ahhhHH! XD

Tips in Kedah: Have a car and jst relax. They have big roads and no jam! =D

Then, the nxt day we went to Langkawi!

Took ferry (ticket: RM23) Langkawi's Jetty Point.

We (Chen, Peng, Su Ching and me) meet up with Joey and her sis(i didn't frgt her name but i jst dont knw how to write in chinese). =D

We rent Avanza for RM100 with RM50 deposit for whole day (24hrs).

Drove to this cafe and had our brunch~ XD

The food is just SO-SO only.. Don't expect much..

Then we simply drove around Langkawi aimlessly to

liqour and choco duty free shops and Under Water World and Island Horse and Black Sand and basically whole Langkawi.

Just incase if you're wondering~ We stayed in a resort called Malibest at Pantai Chenang for 1 night for only RM150 and RM50 key deposit.

Then night time, we went to have our dinner at Orkid Ria Seafood Restaurant along Pantai Chenang too.

We ordered

Then we packed our bags and headed back to Kedah *chen's house* to take our luggage.

But, before that, we had our breakfast at this Arked Pokok Asam 1

(use GPS to find the address if u wan to..i frgt d =P)

The waiter told us that the most famous is the Yin Yang Cha and Luan Kut Mee.

So we ordered drinks

Egg and Sausage set.

Yin Yang cold and hot

Luan Kut Mee (soft Bone mee)

Wan Tan Mee

Tips in Langkawi: Have lots of money and don't simply buy liqour(it's very troublesome), rent a car cause Langkawi is small. Just follow the free map and that's it.

We reached Kedah and packed our luggage as the next day we will be going to Penang. =D Had our dinner.

Around 11.30pm, we went to have our supper.

This curry mee stall is really famous among the local and it is seriously NOT CHEAP OR REASONABLE but still delicious.

Only this 3 bowls, it already cost around RM30.

Random pics *chen's cat* SO CUTE!

Then we headed to Penang in the morning. Took a bus to the Jetty in Butterworth (ticket RM10) then from Jetty took a ferry(RM1.20) (love the open air ferry) to Penang Island! Too bad Su Ching can't follow.

Then we took bus to JOey's house. =D

After that, we went to Prangin Mall at Georgetown.

We had our brunch at this ShuanShuanLe Steambot. This is my first time after so many years of NO PRAWNS and i took a bite. I was really happy and excited eventhough the very nxt day i was itchy all over. LOL! XD

Then I took some takoyaki for RM3.90. There was only 4 biji and IT"S NOT NICE and the salesgirl was so rude. Her face shows "HIT ME". =P

Then we went to 1st Avenue for a walk then to Gurney Plaza.

We even watched movie (The Priest for RM11) at Gurney Plaza.

Bought this Green Tea Ice Cream for RM2.90 and it's delicious. =D

So, night time came and we jst walked out from the Plaza and headed to this famous Gurney Drive Hawker Center.

Some pics of the stall that we bought the food from..

We ordered (for the first round)

Fried Oyster, Rojak, Asam Laksa, 5TasteSoup *lol..dont knw how to translate the name*, Char Kuey Teow

Har Mee / Hokkien Mee

Chee Cheong Fun

Char Kuey Teow *frm other stall*

Steamed Otak-otak

Then the next day~

Our breakfast was at this shop>>

Fatty Loh Chicken Rice

They only sell their kuey teow soup for RM1 NETT!

Cha Siew and Lor Bak and Chicken Meat

Joey's parents brought us there and ordered 11 bowls NOT inclusive of the additional chicken rice and side dishes.

All Types of cooked drinks @@

Following>>

We went to all possible temples and historical places in Penang.

Some of the pics.The pics are in time sequence =D

I LOVE THIS LOTUS THINGY!! I threw around 12 coins and i got 3 into the bowl!! XD

I got Prosperity, Good Luck and Happy Marriage =.='''. But I'm still thankful! ^^

They said that this person is a real human and he have reached the stage of enlightenment. @@ I seriously don't knw anything bout it.

So after that, we had our late lunch.

We ate asam laksa and deep fried snacks.

Then we headed home to rest and went off to dinner.

So paiseh cause it's JOey's Ah Ma's mother day dinner. >.<

But actually we all was mentally forced to join along. LOL~ Jst Jking.. But we really had a really massive dinner to finish. It felt like ages when I was eating it..T^T But it's really delicious! XD

I think the picture will tell u what the food is. If you have any question can jst ask me. =D

Finished our dinner, we went home and prepare for tomorrow's departure to our own hometown.

Breakfast was another gigantic one too.. T_____________T

There's roti canai, char bee hoon and kuey teow and mee, fried chicken, soup, vege, fried rice, curry and lor bak. @@

Finally, Joey's dad drove us to Komtar and it was raining. It's the end of our road trip. *touched*

Tips in Penang: Have lots of changes if u wanted to go to temple. YOu'll definately need it! When u go to hawker centre, don't think that the one where ppl queuing up is the one that is very nice.=.= TRUST ME IN THIS! Use ur smell and sight to check the food.

I would like to thank Chen Chen's parents and Joey's parents for all the food and stay and hospitality given. It was a truly enjoyable trip.

Till next time! I want to go to such holiday again! ^^