Conflicts of Mind

i dont understand humans! i dont understand all these ppl!

when i dont care.. they say i'm mean and realistic..

when i care.. they say i'm not grateful and being -ve..

when i ignore totally.. they say i'm useless...

i always wonder.. whether i care or not.. does it really matter?

since you all have been busy telling me this and that on each of my comments..

am i important or not in ur life? I DONT CARE!

why do u wan to turn me into u? by putting all those comments and advice and giving me those looks when i voice out what's in my mind??then u set your mentality about me at once~ jst like tht..it's disturbing!!! i'm jst saying~

DID I ASKED FOR YOUR OPINION?

dont judge a person just by the words or sentence or phrase they used.. so everyone that talk nicely and praising u is a good person?? haha! u know better! FACE IT!

i never explained myself before..cause i am lazy,tired, and i'm not good with beautiful words..

but i jst got the feeling to write it out now.. cause there's this flame in me burning..making me so damn angry..it's like those kind of pressure cooking and not burning fire..

when i say i don't care.. means I NEED TIME!!!!!! LET ME DECIDE! it's MY LIFE!

what are u so worried bout? if u are worried.. then.. GO GET UR OWN LIFE!

it also means that i DO NOT wan to think about it at that moment! so stop raising the issue up!

but this always happens btwn me and certain aged ppl.. because they tend to be childish at their age.. but trying to keep the adult image by saying things... but some friends tell u this and that.. and some friends don't..

i'm tired.. tired of being nice to ppl that i don't like.. do not like does not mean that i hate them.. it's the center of like and hate.. i have my own ranking.. so save ur energy to rank it..

after all this long nonsense.. because humans want explanation and reason and i wanna avoid more nonsense thinking on other ppl's mind.. my main point is..

Next time.. ASK ME when it has to do about ME! don't go and decide or comment or do anything you wan that relates to ME!

dont set any image of me in ur mind.. cause.. it's my image! and then expect me to live up to the image in ur mind.. i'm neither an actress nor a puppet...

if u're reading this..and think that this post is so emo-ish and sad and angry-ish and nonsense and stuffss.. YEA IT IS! BUT!!!!! DID I ASK FOR YOUR OPINION?

THE ANSWER WOULD BE NO!!!!! so keep it to yourself and MOVE ON!

dont act all innocent and criticise this..cause it's in all of the human's mind too!

this is jst to release my anger.. so read d..u can frgt d.. no point remembering..